Friday, October 3, 2014

A Miracle!!!


This isn't necessarily a post regarding miracles, but more of a shock at how incredible the human race can be when you're around moderately sane individuals.

In other words, I moved out.

After a significant amount of time sitting in a basement in the middle of nowhere, my only social outlet being Wally-world (maybe twice a month), and mowing the five acres of grass which my immediate family had the brilliant idea to rent, I realized that the environment I was in... well, was not healthy.

Seriously, it took me five months and numerous arguments to figure out that the majority of the adults I was around were emotionally abusive.

And I still haven't figured out exactly what is supposed to be considered normal in terms of relationships between people who actually care and those who don't.

If that makes any sense.

Since moving in September, adjusting has been very strange. I'm no longer in 'the south', let alone the Bible belt, and everyone is a lot more trusting than I have ever experienced.

I can actually consider living here for the next five to six years.

Think of it..... COLLEGE.

I wanna get my motherfucking Ph.D!!


Some extended family decided to let me stay with them, which was strange in and of itself. While I've been around them I've realized just what 'family' means. And the phrase "Nothing is thicker than blood" (I think that's the phrase) is starting to have some meaning to it.

One of the last things I heard my family in the South say before I decided to move out was, "This is first and foremost a Christian Household. We can't just let her go teaching Atheist doctrine to the younger kids. Why does she even need a phone, it's not like she's using it to get a job. She's 18 for goodness sakes. We don't need to encourage this slovenly behavior."


Cause it's not like they were the ones who decided to move to the middle of nowhere, taking me from any form of support or network that I had been slowly creating. Town was seven miles away, and a very independent young adult with no car, no money, no sense of belonging, and no motivation really wasn't going to get anywhere.


To think my own father told me I was on the path to self destruction when I let him know I was making a decision for myself (for once) to move somewhere I felt I would be able to have a future, was really a big slap on the back.

Good for me.

The path to self destruction looks like a damn bright one.

Saturday, July 12, 2014


Had a rather frustrating conversation a while back with someone who is socially 'close' to me, and the statement continues to nag at the back of my mind.

"Evil is the absence of god."

When I heard this, my first question was, "So I'm Evil?". Of course, this was probably a bad question considering the emotionally volatile nature of the person I was speaking to.

However, I couldn't help but feel like it needed to be said. If Evil is the absence of god, how much more 'absent' can you get than an Atheist? (They know I am a Non-beleiver btw, I'm not sure how they thought I wouldn't take offence at this.)

"You're not because you were raised a Christian."

Somehow I'm different because of how I was raised? But then how is it I get a special pass whereas all other people who are without this version of (a) god are Evil?

There are many Atheists who come from Religious backgrounds, how am I any different than them? If other Atheists are considered 'Evil' to certain people, it's rather maddening to be treated any differently.

If I'm simply not 'Evil' because I was raised that way, then surely I should still be a Christian, right? Something didn't stick there with the indoctrination and preaching, and I obviously saw through it at some point.



Friday, June 13, 2014


Now, I try not to get too frustrated with other people. It's a waste of energy, especially if they're going to be stubborn to the point of changing topics entirely or going on rants about random things that are barely related to what you were trying to explain.

But really.

I get that a certain member of my immediate family doesn't care how the rest of the family views them. But when you consider the fact that another person in the family was threatened to the point of people saying that they would call CPS on them if they didn't raise their children Baptist (and they were only Catholic), I think there's reason to be concerned.


Somehow that rational discussion was derailed into some one-sided rant about the mythical gay "agenda" (which had no relevance to the conversation), and how the person thought that Atheists considered Christians unintelligent.

Which I never even implied.

Admittedly the amount of (or lack of) evidence that these intelligent people accept as proof for their religion/god/lifestyle is rather absurd. But that's merely an observation based on what they choose to accept, not their cognitive abilities.

I think from now on I should focus on not getting into arguments (though I was only really voicing a concern at the time) at 3 in the morning when logic has taken a back seat to 'omgus' (omgus = oh my god u suck).


Thursday, May 15, 2014

Bible Love

Decided to go back over some of my formerly favourite passages in the Bibble, and it's interesting reading them from a different perspective.

Well, more like a perspective that actually is thinking about wtf they're reading instead of just accepting it (making sure to skim over the parts that aren't quite as pleasant as the parts that are more friendly).

"Now Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen." - Hebrews 11:1

I used to absolutely love this verse. Being someone who loved imagining things and generally wallowing with their head in the clouds. Now I realize just how derp it is.

If Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things that we can't see, what about all those other people who have more 'faith' even than Christians. Take suicide bombers for example, people who scourge themselves, those who sit and fast for who knows how long (I'm not terribly versed in other religions, this is as much as I can come up with at the moment.)

But that's just the start.

You have that, and then the fact that with this logic I could say that the Flying Spaghetti Monster is substantial and has evidence simply because of the fact that there are those who might have 'faith' in it.

This is probably just the start of things, but yeah. Little by little I hope to figure out what exactly I've been fed all these years and deal with it accordingly.


Tuesday, April 1, 2014

April Fools!!!

Okay, I've had this blog name up for quite a while, however I've finally decided to use it for it's 'intended' purpose.

Seeing as I recently became a legal Adult, and this is April Fool's Day (which doesn't really negate the legitimacy of this post, just makes it more amusing) I'm finally coming out to my family about being Atheist.

At least on Facebook.

Which is pretty big I guess.

Oh, right. And here.

I could have gone on to my sexuality and etc, but I figure since we just moved out of the San Francisco Bay Area and into the heart of the Bible Belt, it'd be best to take things one step at a time.


Here I am, yes, I am an Atheist.

From time to time I plan on posting things that I find interesting, including my own interperetation of things in sermons which I hear on a weekly basis.

(I actually take notes now unlike before when it was just me sitting there going 'meh').

Hopefully this will go okay, but we'll see.

Wish me luck!! (Or not, it's up to you.)